Wow.

I wrote this on September 24, 2001.  I haven't written anything in ages.  I miss it so much, but I don't think my writings would make any sense lately.  There was a time when I wanted to be an author, then I settled with ghostwriting...then I took it down a notch more, and decided on proof reading.  And now I don't know where the aspirations went.  I'm aspiration-less.  But at least I still have a sense of humor.

(UNTITLED)


By: Elaine Diaz



I look at you,

You, with your fake red smile and your porcelain skin,

Your perfect manicure, and matching toenails,

Any beauty contest, you're sure to win.



Seven-inch shoes to go along with your seven inch nails,

Your almost fake accent, you were looking for the saleswoman,

The one who can only feed her 5 kids, depending on her sales,

"I'm sorry ma'am, 6 is the smallest we carry them"



So you walked away, disappointed as ever,

You called your mom from your cell phone,

And complained about how you were never going back to that store, NEVER



Sure, yours are pretty,

But at least mine are real,

Crooked and uneven,

No acrylic,

No weekly refill,

Chipping electric blue paint,

Icky scratching sound on the chalk board,

Should I scratch harder, is the sound too faint?

No Complaining.

"No complaining!!Are you starving? No? Then,let's have a little perspective,shall we? See a therapist. Switch to decaf. Lay off the pills. Try some stretching. Take five. Have a time out. Write it down.Make a painting.Have a hot bath. Quit hanging on to past hurts.Forgive all to get over all and get on with it!Puh-leeeze! Develop some humor.Laugh it off. Yuk it up. Don't be mean. Karma is instant.There is no coincedence.Live today."

IED, OH NO!

So I don't know if  I'm "authorized" to even say anything, but supposedly an IED was found where Robert is stationed.  Now, I'm not STUPID, I know something like that could technically happen ANYWHERE, but I guess I was a bit naive in thinking that since he wasn't in a war zone I wouldn't have to think about IEDs.  Good thing is it was found.  I can't imagine if something terrible would of happened.  Of course then Robert tells me everything will be okay, and he will be okay.  But my thinking is "You're not made of steel!!  You are not invincible!!" 
Maybe I am just a drama queen after all.  Maybe my brother, my grandma and my mom have been right all along!  Maybe I do make little things into big things.  How interesting would life be without a little drama in it tho??  Everyone needs some Elaine in their life!!

She's Come Undone.

After years of not taking the time to sit and enjoy a good book, I finally asked my friend Kat to recommend something for me to read.  She came downstairs, with "She's Come Undone".  "This is a really great book, I think you'll love it."  And you know what, I did.  It took me awhile to get into it, but that's how I am about most of the books I read.  If you like to read, I highly recommend this book.  It is very emotional, so be ready to cry, and sympathize with Dolores. 

It's been awhile...

So the last time I blogged was actually a couple of years ago.  We were still living in Oklahoma.  Fort Sill to be exact.  I blogged on livejournal.com when I was in High School.  One of my good friends got me into it, Roland.  We'd blog instead of doing our work.  It was fun!  I kept it up all thru high school, thru all my crazy relationships, and even blogged about my true love finding me....my pregnancy with our daughter, Victoria  and life without him while he was deployed in South Korea for the first year and a half of our marriage.  It was a tough time for us, but we made it and have been married for 6 years.  We even added a sweet baby boy to our family.  Eli, he turned 2 in February.  But the Army is vicious sometimes, and duty called him to serve overseas again.  This time he is in Kuwait.  He thought Texas weather was unforgiving, till he met Kuwait!!  He's only been gone for almost 3 months now, and I am already feeling the stress of juggling our 2 kids, bills, yard work and having the closest family (his) an hour away.  I miss my family a lot.  They helped me out a lot the first deployment, and honestly, I am surprised I'm still somewhat sane.  Lucky for me, Tori starts school on Monday.  So that will be a couple of hours that Eli will have his mama all to himself.  I'm very anxious for Robert's R&R to get here.  Mostly I'm excited to see how Eli is going to react to him.  Eli is very jealous and protective of me, so needless to say, it will be very interesting.  I don't know how long I will keep up with this blog.  I guess as long as the kids let me stay on the keyboard!!  I love to write, and maybe this is the kind of hobby I need to help my days go by...even if it just helps with 20 minutes.  :)

---Elaine

Tori & Eli Dec 2009